After racing Santa Cruz 70.3 I have continued to wear my race bracelet….until today.
Keeping my race bracelet on was for a much deeper reason. Many think it is because of the little spousal rivalry my husband and I had set into play over the 70.3 Santa Cruz course in which he said he could finish in the same amount of time as me…which I won. My race bracelet really has nothing to do with that at all.
You see, I had found such a great group of like-minded triathlete friends in Oakland that I have really struggled to transition to Portland fully. I miss them every day. I miss the weekly swimming and running session and the weekend rides. I know I have expressed my heartache but I don’t know that I really recognized how emotionally draining it has been on me.
Once in Portland I felt like I was missing out on big events and training sessions that I really wanted to be a part of and found myself back in “train on your own” rut. I even traveled down to participate in training weekends when I could…and the fact I won’t be making the end of season team party next month really aches my soul. This race bracelet is the last moment of the season I was able to spend with my favorite peeps…and I really didn’t want it to end.
Now that the season is over and I have slowed down to reconnect with myself a bit more I realized something. I haven’t lost those connections…because they are still there (in a virtual sort of way) and will be there when I visit and at a couple of next years races..and maybe if I can convince them to come this way for a weekend of training.
I do need to strive to make those types of connections here in Portland. Now hear me out, I don’t need motivation to keep the desire I have inside me to compete in triathlons…cause that is seeded deep. I have close friends that could attest to that!!!! LOL
But it is awesome and motivating to connect with people who enjoy the sport like I do.
So today ….cutting of my race bracelet symbolizes my willingness to move forward instead of staying in a constant
state of longing. While I heal physically it is also time to heal emotionally.
I have already begun to connect with like-minded triathletes here in Portland and they are pretty awesome individuals…
Onward and Upward!!!